Four years to soon

I still can't believe that it's been four years since my mom passed. Some days I feel like it was forever ago since I last gave her a hug, and told her I loved her while at other times I feel like it was just last night that I was kneeling at her side while my dad was giving me a fathers blessing. The last words she said to me still seem so clear. They're words that motivate me to come over any trial I may be dealing with. "I can't do this anymore." Those words brought on a whole new meaning to me. She taught me to be a fighter! She faught to the end, she wanted to be the best at everything she tried and in my eyes she was succesful. I don't want to give up on the little things that are going to keep me from being with her and my family for eternity! I found a note awhile back that I wrote in response to one she gave me. Reading it makes me wish that we had a perfect relationship, and never disagreed on anything but it also makes me realize that she made me want to be a better person. It reads, 2 my eternal special mother! Hugs and kisses
Mom-
Thanks for always being there. I know we have our times but I want you to always remember that I love you with all my heart and soul. You always do what's best for me. Thanks for the letter you sent me while I was gone. It let me know how much you really care about me and I appreciate it alot. I didn't tell you how much I cared that you stsyed up all night last week to help me pack! In everything you do it shows how much you really love me, care for me, and try to do what's best for me! You are the greatest! You are the best mother no matter what, and noone can beat you for everything you've done not just for me but for everyone! You may not have the best health but I know if you keep trying your hardest heavenly father will do what you can't do and you're going to get through this life fine! With the wedding getting closer every day it puts more and more stress on you and you try your hardest. I know that I am kind of a poop head but I'll try harder and we'll make this the best wedding ever. I love you and don't forget. I'm going to keep trying,I love you tonz XOXOXOXOXO
-Macee-
I love you mom, and thank you for making me a who I am today! You're the worlds greatest!

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